it comes today

C.S. Lewis:
     "We take as starting point our ordinary self with its various desires and interests. We then admit that something else -- call it 'morality' or 'decent behavior,' or 'the good of society' -- has claims on this self; claims which interfere with its own desires. What we mean by 'being good' is giving in to those claims. Some of the things the ordinary self wanted to do turn out to be what we call 'wrong': well, we must give them up. Other things, which the self did not want to do, turn out to be what we call 'right': well, we shall have to do them. But we are hoping all the time that when all the demands have been met, the poor natural self will still have some chance, and some time, to get on with its own life and do what it likes." 
     "We are still taking out natural self as the starting point." As long as we are thinking that way, one or other of the two results is likely to follow. Either we give up trying to be good or else we become very unhappy indeed. For, make no mistake: if you are really going to try and meet all the demands made on the natural self, it will not have enough left over to live on. The more you obey your conscience, the more your conscience will demand of you. And your natural self, which is thus being starved and hampered and worried at every turn, will get angrier and angrier. In the end you will either give up trying to be good, or else become one of those people who, as they say, 'live for others' but always in a discontented grumbling way -- always wondering why the other do not notice it more and always making a martyr of yourself. And once you have become that you will be a far greater pest to anyone who has to live with you than you would have been if you had remained frankly selfish." 
     "The Christian way is different" "Christ says 'Give me All. I don't so much of your time and so much of your money and so much of your work: I want You. I have not come to torment your natural self, but to kill it No half-measure are any good I don't want to cut off a branch here and a branch there, I want to have the whole tree down... I will give you a new self instead, In fact, I will give you Myself: my own will shall become yours'."
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"That is why the real problem of the Christian life comes where people do not usually look for it. It comes the very moment you wake up each morning. All your wishes and hopes for the day rush at you like wild animals. And the fist job each morning consists simply in shoving them all back; in listening to that other voice, taking that other points of view, letting that other larger, stronger, quieter life come flowing in. And so on, all day. Standing back from all your natural fussings and frettings; coming in out of the wind. We can only do it for moments at first. But from those moments the new sort of life will be spreading through our system: because now we are letting Him work at the right part of us."